Saturday, December 13, 2008

Oh my poor feet...

Ok, I was in TM Mall last week with besties looking for shoes.Nothing seems to catches my eyes ..its either wedges (which I'm trying to break away from) , heel too high , colour to blah! or front to rounded (I'm petite - so anything rounded in front is a No No!).I need something comfortable to slip on...something that I could wear whole day without tiring my poor dainty feet.

Then we came across Clarks section and fall in love with this pair.The moment I slipped it feels like you're walking on air!
I'm definitely buying it during my next trip! Insya'allah.

Friday, December 12, 2008

IVF journey....a new beginning

5th Dec 2008

In Singapore for my blood test in NUH and had some documents that needed to be read and sign.Went to eat lunch with Mummy and Dad afterwards - had Hainan Chicken Rice.After lunch Dad drop me off at Mama's house.She was surprised that I came back again.Had to tell her a white lie.Told her that I had to go to HDB because of our house issues.I would love to tell her the reason I came back but I know she would be so worried about me and she would fuss over me.And if the IVF failed, I wouldn't bear to see her disappointment.

My next appointment will be 11th Dec with Prof Wong for my blood review.
This date will determine whether we are qualified to go ahead with the IVF or not.

Now the question is....what am I suppose to do next 6 days?
Without my lap top, my books, my scrap album and most of all my KY.Its been a long week...for me at least.What I did? hindi movies n cried my heart out...and read again.

At last 11Dec came.
My appointment is at 935 am at NUH.
I was quite nervous actually.What happen if we are not fit to do the IVF? Should we go for adoption? When my name was called out by the nurse, I said a lil' prayers before I went in.Prof Wong came in soon after...and he look into the report and explain what are the results...which was quite hazy for me.Ok some of the medical terms I don't quite understand.The only words I understood was, 'Ok, looking at the report and you and your husband will go ahead with the IVF.'Alhamdulillah...we finally get to do it.

On 23rd Dec is the starting of Follicle stimulation.
I have to self inject of Suprefact(Buserelin) for 2 weeks.This procedure is to stimulate the ovaries to produce follicles containing the egg.The thought of self injecting myself already scared the hell out of me.The nurse who showed me how it was done make it sound so easy.yeah..try poking yourself and we'll see how easy that is!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Life on an airplane

I was supposed to go back Jakarta after Aidil Adha but was getting restless in Singapore.KY not around so decided to go back earlier.And if my period came then I wold have to fly back again.If my calculation are correct that means it would be another 2 more weeks.So at least I had ample time to spend with KY.

So re-book flight tickets and had to pay US 50 for re-booking fees.
And guess what? 3 days after arriving Jakarta, my period came this morning.In fact I could feel it while I was making breakfast for KY.He was sympathetic and consoling....I guess he could see that I was about to burst into tears.I tried to hold back my tears as I do not want to cry in front of him.Deep down he knew that I was disappointed.

So now is the journey of going through IVF.Have contacted NUH and this Friday will be my blood test and Day 21 of my menses will be self injection for 14 days.

Already book my flight ticket home ...again.
Will be going back on Thurs night and Friday morn Dad and mummy will send me to hospital and straight to airport.Going back Jakarta on Friday itself.Didn't inform mama and Umi that I'll be home for a day because I know there will be lots of questioning and we plan to keep this IVF things to our self (besides Dad & Mummy) till I'm confirm pregnant.
I pray to Allah that this procedure will be a success...insyallah!