Perfect marriage? No such things!

KY's contract end this November and still unsure if he will continue with the club.I am okay if he sign on again and I too would be all right if we were to go back to Singapore.Whichever decision he makes I will always support him.Soccer is his life and he always thrive to learn something new or take up new challenge.

Past 8 years we've been married, I was always being left alone and he would travel for work commitment.Even when I joined him here, the next day I was left alone in a new house, new environment without a driver.I learned to be independent, to get things running so I wont be too dependent on him.

Its difficult first few years of our marriage...to get things adjusted.We had different ideas and he being away too often.We would argued at the most slightest things but through faith we managed to overcome the turmoil. It made us more mature and also Alhamdulillah I have family and few good friends to keep me at bay.Communication too is very important be it with husband, friends or families.

Throughout our marriage, we had learned a lot from each other.When we first started dating everything was so sweet, the sun is always shining , the moon is always round and bright, flowers blooming everywhere and boy was I wrong!A year after marriage, all bad habits started to surfaced little by little until you started to wander...Who is this Man I'm marrying ??Hmm...I didn't see that coming!Maybe I didn't read the fine lines.. by then its too late to turn back.Its either you swim or you drown.I chose to swim because I wanted him to be my first and last and till this very date I have never regretted my decision.

That's life...Nothing is perfect...and you thought you married a perfect man! ha ha ha...Wake up and smell the coffee!!You are not living in La La land!

Sweet li'l Fitri

Called Mama yesterday to wish her Happy Mothers Day and she told me the most cutest story about my lil' cousin - Fitri.

Fitri is 5 years old.His mom (my Aunt) was in hospital so Mama and Bik A' took care of Fitri for the time being.One morning, Fitri came by Mama's house and saw her doing her beads necklaces.He told Mama that his Mum would love one of the necklaces and ask how much was it.Mama jokingly said..its $10.Next morning, he came knocking and ask for the necklace.He said he wants to buy it for his Mum.So Mama gave him the necklace and he went to visit his Mum at the hospital to give to her.Since its strict ruling that child under age of 12 couldn't enter the hospital ward, he pass the necklace to Bik A'.

Later in the afternoon, Fitri ask Bik A' to pass $10 to Mama.He took out his own money from his piggy bank to buy his Mum the necklace for Mother's Day!How sweet is that??

Random quizzes

Its Mother's Day today.Wish all the Mums and Mums-to-be A Happy Mother's Day!

Had these quizzes from one of the blogger and I should give it a try : -

1. What is something your husband always says to you?
'Have u pray?'

2. What makes your husband happy?
Watching soccer.

3. What makes your husband sad?
I dunno..I have never seen him sad or maybe he doesnt like showing it.

4. How old is your husband?
41..my goodness! I knew him when he's 23.

5. What was your husband like in high school?
Shy..extremely shy...that's what my MIL told me.

6. How tall is your husband?
170 cm and I love it!

7. What is your husband's favourite thing to do?
I will say it again...Watch soccer

8. What does your hubby do when you're not around?
And again...Watch soccer.

9. If your husband becomes famous, what will it be for?
For having ideas that no one can ever think of.

10.What is your husband really good at?
He's good in ordering his wife around.Think he's born with it.Its one of his talent!

11.What is your husband not really good at?
He's not really good at fixing things at home.Like once he painted MIL's door and he painted the peephole too.And the poor woman have to peek through the window glass each time somebody rings the bell.

13.What is your husband's favourite food?
Bread.He lives on bread especially french loaves.

14.What makes you proud of your husband?
His principles and his dedication.

15.If your husband were a cartoon character, which would he be?
Mr Bean...ha ha ha.Sorry honey!

Getting married

I was on my computer when Ibah msn me and told me that our brother Fawzan, is getting married.I had a shock of my life! Well..not really.I know he will settle down one day..but to hear the news was simply shocking.

• Firstly, we have never heard him liking a girl or he having a girlfriend.
• Secondly, he doesnt met the girl before.

Here how the story goes...

Fawzan teaches at a mosque and one day an uncle approaches him and took liking of him.He wanted Fawzan to be his son-in-law.Fawzan consulted my parents and to make story short, my parents went to the uncle's house to get to know his family.So when my parents came back and ask Fawzan if he's interested...and he said yes although he has never met the girl before.Kind of weird..isn't it? But I know my brother will make a right choice and whomever he chooses I would be happy for him.The wedding Insya'allah will be end of this year.A wedding to plan! I'm so excited! But I know he would probably want a simple no-fuss wedding.

This week was kind of a slow one.

Went to PIM with WJ...first time I went out with her alone after her ordeal.She needs to get some stuff there.She was doing great although in wheelchair.And some people would just stare at her.Come on! You have never seen people in wheelchair before? Quit staring!

KY advised me to bring her out everyday for a short while.It would be good for her rather than she staying at home.

P/s I'm hook with my PSP.I'm now playing SIMS 2 Castaway.

Where have the days gone?

I had a terrible migraine yesterday.Pop 2 panadol extra and slept the whole afternoon.Woke up this morning feeling fuzzy wuzzy.You know the feeling after too much sleep and your body just feel urrgghhh...

Had to dragged myself out of bed.So many things that need to be done today.I need to go for groceries shopping, pay my bills and go to the bank to transfer money.

By the time I finished its already late afternoon.Sometimes you just wonder how the days gone by so fast .

Ky had a game today and he will be back later in the evening.

Today was my MIL's birthday.Happy Birthday Umi!

SARS and SWINE and then what?

Before was SARS and now Swine flu?

Today morning the Swine Flu are already on phase 5 out of 6..that means its already at a critical stage.The virus has been spreading worldwide.Although there are no suspected cases yet in Singapore but precautions are already been alerted.

Yesterday was my appointment at NUH.When me and KY arrived,there was long queue at the entrance of the hospital.We were asked to join the queue to take our temperature and to answer some question ...like Do I have a cough? Whether I had just visited Mexico, USA etc....I was pretty sure that when all these procedures are over, it will be long wait at the clinic.KY had to be back at the hotel by noon.(he is in Sin with the team for the match).Half and hour later, we are able to clear the gantry.

Alhamdulillah, when we arrived the clinic, we are the 2nd patients.The rest got held up downstairs.Went to see Prof and he explained how the IVF stages work.Based on the report, I responded well to the current process.Our next IVF will be in June since I have to recuperate for 2 months.I am to see him 2nd day of my June period.Oh well...we will wait.After the appointment, we had lunch and I went home.

That night went to watch the match at Jalan Besar.The boys played well but fumbled in front of the goal post.We lost 1-0 to DPMM.

This morning send KY to Jalan Besar for training.And he will follow the team straight to airport.They will go back Jakarta and straight to Bandung.Will only be back on the 5th.

And now as I was typing, I am waiting for Linda to give me a buzz.

Going to meet the girls for coffee.My flight back to Jakarta will be Saturday.Wanted to stay long but I got class on Sunday.The kids had a 'helluva' time when I was away for a month and now is 'payback' time.

The pain

I know I have not been blogging.I am already back to Jakarta recuperating.My period came on 4th April.I vividly remembered waking up in the morning and went to take a shower and it came.I was confused and sad.

I remembered crying in the shower questioning myself.Did I exhaust myself?Did I eat something?I called KY and told him the bad news.He was just about to board the plane to Papua when I called.He told me not to worry and if its confirm that is my period we can try again.He said no matter what,with or without a child he always love me.After putting down the phone I immediately called CHR hotline.Since it was Sunday,I was asked to go for blood test on Monday morning.I just don't feel like talking to anybody and I don't feel like telling anybody at that time.I just wanted to be alone.

Next day went to the hospital and did my blood test.Deep inside me there is a tiny bit of hope that it was a false alarm.But who am I kidding?

Right before lunch, CHR called and confirm that I am not pregnant.I was devastated! I was in my own house in my room...crying my heart out!Soon after I called Linda to tell her the news.She came soon after and we talked and we cried.I was quite relieved after a good cry.

At time like these its good to have good friends around.I have to be strong and try again.I wont give up.I know Allah had best things in store for us.I know that!

I just need to get away and go back to KY.2 days later I was back in Jakarta to my loving husband.

WJ was in Singapore for treatment.I get to see her when I fetched her at the airport a day before I leave for Jakarta.She was looking good.She had gain a bit of weight but her face was radiant.

Felt so sorry for her because she was counting to spend time with me in Singapore.When she saw me at the airport, she asked me why I'm going back so soon?At that time I couldn't help it as I whispered to her ear and told her that the IVF had failed.Tears started trickling down as she held my hand firmly.I wanted so much to talk to her!And she knew I wanted to.